My Journey throughout survival…….

These twelve months have been difficult lol no I mean these nineteen day’s have been a day by day survival. I have be documenting the attacks ohhhhh the pillow fights that have been happening!! I can’t count how many times I have been wounded in the field. Or the fight of who gets the last little bit of cheerios in the house, lol if you haven’t noticed I’m somewhat dramatic. Well I have been cleaning around my house, when I say that I mean I start and then after ten minutes get distracted with something and then stop. But I have cleaned the dangerous closest of mine, I have even organized my clothes by color and by weather type. I almost got sent into Narnia with an avalanche of clothes. Some thoughts I have had is that, how many deaths in so little time. Where have those lost have gone? Did they inured so most pain that isn’t describable? How are the family’s ? Will we go back to “normal” after all of this?

Many thoughts have came across my mind, I have wondered so much. One thing I want back is going to church like we would every single Sunday and hearing the word of the Lord and somewhat understanding my mission in life . Apart from that be able to enjoy the small things like going to school and socializing with my friends and teachers.

like my abuelita said to me as a child

Siempre habrá una arcoiris después de una gran tormenta.

The first thing that I dislike of this research paper, trying to credible sources that make sense. There are many sources but some just do not connect with other or they just have outrages claims that don’t connect with general idea with Jeffrey Epstein death.

The second one is in connecting my reasoning with my evidence while having it still make sense. Which sometimes is difficult for me with not repeating things over and over again.

Lastly is struggling in putting the reasoning and as well as finding reasoning. With all the paragraphs I feel like I won’t have enough.

For my conspiracy theory I chose Jeffrey Epstein’s death, Many believe that he wasn’t hanged as the medical examiner said some say that he’s still alive and the federal government is hiding him from the public eye. And well I chose this to challenge me in a way. I have never done a research paper and well this conspiracy theory is quite difficult to get information and make it into a good paper it’s difficult. Just in general it was an eye catching topic . I have already learn so much already.

My thoughts in how I did on the essay are a bit shaky. I am never completely sure of my writing specie, I always say to myself that there could have been more that I could have added. I struggled a lot with the conclusion in the whole ending it I felt it wasn’t a strong ending. With something that I felt successful it would be putting together my evidence. Well for my topic I choose female empowerment. With the advertisements #LikeAGirl and Dream crazier from the company Nike. It was an eye opening work assignment to work with . Since I have heard ” like a girl” multiple times. But not really but any thought in it until I worked with the advertisement. Something else that I would change is how I started my theist statement. But I feel confident in the way I wrote it .

In my group, we had “water” and we were going to write a email to congress. We took it upon ourselves to write it about in a letter. So it would be in formal way since congress would be the one reading it. As well that we wrote it in a email since we used the topic ” water” in that they water wasn’t in good conditions and that it was effecting the people of Gaithersburg. Which was an urgent situation that we made up as a group. So it would be more appropriate, as well we had to consider that with a letter it could be lose or used to the side. I believe that our choice was successful. Since it got our point across that it was meant to the congress. So they could make a change and see that those living situations were unlivable. As well with living in those conditions many of the people wouldn’t be able to live a long and healthily life.

1. Well for that question, Am I a writer? well for me I don’t consider myself a writer. I haven’t met the mark that I have played upon myself. One of the factors are that I self doubt myself from the smallest writing pieces to the largest. Which doesn’t help me when I compare my writings to other’s . Especially in poetry which I have found a passion for, Most whom know me. They know that I have an art for it, But there are struggles like with punctuation and spelling that I struggle frequently. But the one that is important is self satisfaction.
2. From if I feel confident with what I put out or I feel like it’s enough for the standards that other set for it or myself included. I write for school and at my home in my free time. I enjoy it at times, but there are times where I get writers block. But I feel like who doesn’t at moments in their lives. I would say there are times where I can’t connect my thoughts out or I can’t find a way where I express them in a generic format or an appropriate way. That pleases everybody, which I have learn that doesn’t happen everybody has there own opinion and views on things. I write well normally is with effort but I times I gave up with it completely which I know that I have to work on that.
3. I put my thoughts in a way that I am understood or I leave others in a question. I write about my experiences that I have had, my feelings and facial experiences, which I may remember. Which can range from pain, happiness, sadness, hunger for knowledge. I put myself in raw positions which at times. I hate myself for putting myself in a vulnerable way that I feel that I am in someone’s mercury. Which is like the feeling of that ache that you feel at your chest or lungs when you are gasping for air. But who knows these are just my thoughts that have come up. Well I write well of course at school for a grade so I can move on and step up to the next challenge. But at home or when I am alone. I write for a sense of release of all of my struggles and worries that I want to be washed away. For many they have find a safe place which for me is normally writing, which gives me a piece of mind.

How your love broke me. 

If you hadn’t set you eyes on me,

None of what I am dealing with would’ve have happened, 

You were a totally different person, when we meet,

You had the smile which left me breathless at times, 

That charm that made forget what was happening in the world at times,  

Those words that you always whispered to me ‘’ You are the pulse to my life’’

It was all a lie,

When you weren’t praising me, you we tearing me apart like the puppet you thought I was,

I didn’t know the right over the wrong,

You make me feel so loved and hated at the same time,

Oh why was I such an Idiot for falling for you,

I gave you chances after another,

I gave a huge part of me why you do what you did, 

Being young and reckless, I was blind sided with the sweet words in which you dicticated to me. 

I always promised my heart life, but with you  

Example number two

I used too

I am calm and Native 

I wonder if there is a way to block people out 

I hear the roars of the almighty beasts  

I see the winds breathe blowing passed the meadow 

I want to see peace with all humanity

I am calm and native 

I pretend to be okay 

I feel the tears streaming down my face 

I touch the hollow of the hearts that have fallen 

I worry there won’t be no stopping

I cry for worries and the memories that have become nightmares

I am calm and native 

I understand some souls are too far gone 

I say that pain is only temporary 

I dream if one day i’ll be okay 

I’ll try to keep my demons hidden 

I hope for not to feel pain 

I am calm and native    

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